Nodal Axis Change May 9, 2017: The New Renaissance

A rustling of silk taffeta can be heard, a artist adds a dash of crimson to his fresco, a lion roars in the Colosseum signalling a fight, marble statues of men litter the gardens, a gilded rebirth is on the horizon, the sparkling palace of your heart awaits an insurgence of creative embellishment.

On May 9, 2017 the nodal axis changes from Virgo/Pisces to Leo/Aquarius until November 7, 2018. The Virgo/Pisces axis was one of aligning to spirit through extracting the spiritual nutrients and discarding the toxins of illusions. The Leo/Aquarius axis is one of embracing the new version of ourselves un-apologetically. Leo represents creativity, self expression, individuality, and the inner child. Aquarius energy represents the other and the collective consciousness. This next year and half is asking us to let go of group conditioning and follow our hearts, wherever that may lead us. The Leo north node will be guiding us to embracing our individuality and uniqueness regardless of what others may think. The south node will be challenging this, luring us back into the cult of of what other people might think about our choices and decisions. Using discernment will be a huge help during what is a delicate time of me versus them. Remember, if every lion thought about what the animals thought of them, they wouldn’t be the kings and queens of the jungle. They own their title proudly, so embrace the throne and wear your crown proudly. If you find yourself becoming the cowardly lion, you will know that you aren’t listening to your inner roar.

I personally feel we will be entering a new renaissance during this next year and a half. The Renaissance of history was a time of building upon classical antiquity (Aquarius) but transforming the traditional into something new and creative (Leo). This will be a period where the old you will be left in the past in favour of your rebirth. On a collective scale I think creativity will flourish thanks to the innovative foundation of Aquarius. A more humanist approach to everything from politics, economics, to art will be much more self centred, hence Mr. Leo Donald Trump’s policy of “America First.”  It will be a tense time where selfishness at the expense of others will be seen in many major areas. Respecting other’s opinions without sacrificing yourself will be the challenge during this time. Coming out victoriously means that you turn others down with love (heart=Leo) as opposed to arrogance. The good thing is that the water bearer Aquarius will always be there to dampen the fiery flames of Leo if things do go unchecked. If you would like to see what you will be re-birthing in your life, check to see where the Leo/Aquarius axis falls in your natal chart.

We may not see the erections of basilicas, or the spread of religious iconography, but what we will see are more subtle examples of grandeur- self love, creativity, independence, and the pursuit of happiness………..and what more beautiful ornamentation could you ask for?

 

Aries Rising- 5th house Leo/11th house Aquarius

Embrace your creativity, focus on bringing out your inner child. Let go of people pleasing and be selective with regards to your social circles.

 

Taurus Rising- 4th house Leo/10th house Aquarius

The focus will shift to your home life, beautify your dwelling, animal prints and exotic decor will be favoured during this time. Lion cubs at home might be more needy. Career will take a back seat, so let go and have fun with the family!

 

Gemini Rising- 3rd house Leo/9th house Aquarius

Stellar communication will be your forte so spend time writing, blogging, public speaking, and having those heart to heart conversations. 9th house Aquarius is asking you to let go of preaching and to communicate your own philosophy of life.

 

Cancer Rising-2nd house Leo/8th house Aquarius

This is your time to earn big and to become self sufficient. Releasing financial co-dependency will become easier for you.

 

Leo Rising- 1st House Leo/7th House Aquarius

Okay all you lions and lionesses this is your time to roar! Happening in your first house, the Leo north node is asking you to be confident and bold without approval seeking from your partners.

 

Virgo Rising- 12th house Leo/6th house Aquarius

Virgo risings will be entering the jungles of spirituality, play around with divination and spirit and let go of the rigidity of everyday routines.

 

Libra Rising- 11th house Leo/5th house Aquarius

The Leo north node is asking you to find a new lion pack to join. Put yourself out there by joining social circles and finding some fierce female companions. Saying goodbye to lackluster hobbies and romantic relationships will allow you to pursue more engaging activities.

 

Scorpio Rising- 10th house Leo/4th house Aquarius

The career will be Scorpio ASC’s domain this next year and a half. Don’t be afraid of having more responsibilities or accepting a promotion. Home and family will be stable in order to focus on career aspirations.

 

Sagittarius Rising- 9th house Leo/3rd house Aquarius

Higher education, forming new philosophies, and foreign travel will be favoured. This is encouraging you to speak your truth and to remove outdated theories and spiritual information from your life.

 

Capricorn Rising- 8th house Leo/2nd house Aquarius

Getting your finances in order will be the focus for you. Refinance, budget, take out a loan. Revamping your spiritual practices will be getting underway, so don’t expect to be holding onto what no longer serves you.

 

Aquarius Rising- 7th house Leo/1st house Aquarius

Get ready for a time of relationships! Pay attention to mirroring as this will be a period of self discovery for you.

 

Pisces Rising- 6th house Leo/12 house Aquarius

This is the time of cleaning up your everyday life. Start a new health regime, balance your work and home life, and get productive! Now is not the time to become the hermit, hiding yourself away from the world for introspection. Work hard and play hard this year.

My Story of Being an Accidental “Healer.”

She left as fast as she entered my life. It was as though the wind carried her in from some barren landscape, where all she had were the oppressing elements and her own inner demons to keep her company. She found me like a camel finds water in the desert. Little did I know, that somehow, I was looking for her too, that I was brought to her from my own paradise, that was lush with medicinal plants, and sunshine. This was my typical encounter of the healer and the healed.

If I look back over my relatively short life, I can see that it is filled with short term “friendships.” My friendships typically last 2 years, and not a second more than that. As someone who doesn’t necessarily crave friendships, this is an alright arrangement, but after a while, it does get lonely and predictable.

In school, which is where all of the friendships occurred, it was always the person who had a lot of emotional baggage, personal drama, broken home and or family, or crippling low self esteem who seemed to find their way to me. I suppose inadvertently I was also drawn to them, as they typically had no friends, were bullied, and were genuinely nice people. On the surface we shared absolutely nothing in common and were the polar opposites to each other. Other people would even question why we were friends, or would just scratch their heads as to why we even talked? I didn’t pay much attention to it, even though I was aware of their perceptions, and found that my “friends’ were oblivious to those feelings and remarks.

My “friends” would spend great deals of time unloading all of their baggage onto me and would confide in me personal struggles they were having that no one else knew about. As a child, I didn’t consciously know that this is what they were doing, but as the agreeable person I am by nature, I listened, offered my advice and insight, but spent most of the time uplifting their spirits and letting them know that they were perfect just the way they were. Conversations never occurred around me or my life, and considering the amount of private information that was confided in me, no one knew anything about me, or my own inner struggles and emotions. Everyday at school felt like a therapy session and when I wasn’t at school, I was at home spending time by myself, absorbed in my books and movies and in my endless imagination. I can see now, that I was retreating, needing to get away from the emotional vampires, hence why I was and still am a loner.

When my “friends” self esteem improved or when the pieces of their lives were put back together, suddenly, the friendship would end, as if someone from above cut the cords that were binding us together. As a child this would usually involve either not keeping in touch with them over the summer holidays, one of us moving away or going to a different school, or finding a different crowd to hang out with. I must say, that I was almost always the person who would cut these cords. I never stayed in touch with my “friends” over the holidays or when we changed schools. Everytime I would go to a new place I would literally start from scratch and not want to keep in touch with anyone from my past. I’ve burned a lot of bridges as a result, but the bridges were only made of paper, and not brick or steel.

One summer afternoon last year, while wearing a piece of Sodalite, it dawned on me, that my friendships suddenly ended, because the person needing to be healed, was healed. Think about it, why hang around the hospital if you’ve recovered from your surgery? There’s no reason for you to be there.

What also dawned on me, was that while I was the one helping the healed, I was also helping myself. My friends were never shy or embarrassed to be vulnerable, they never felt ashamed or uncomfortable sharing intimate details of their battles and inner demons. What’s ironic, is that while I was there to comfort my friends, the one needing comforting was actually me. I have always been hypersensitive and suppressed a lot of my feelings as a child unknowingly. I never had someone to confide in like my friends did. Sure, I had my Mom who is very psychically connected to me, and pretty much knows what I’m feeling and thinking without having to say anything, but she still does not know everything, and I think I’m not alone in saying that I think most of us wish we could have that super close friend who we could turn to in times of need, that person who could offer their unconditional support and love, no judgement or critique. What I’ve come to appreciate about my friends, is their raw vulnerability, something I have always been afraid of.

There’s also a flip side to this dynamic. Recently, in the last couple of years or so, I have also noticed that I am energetically seeking out those who have built walls around themselves, those who have something to hide. I can see this in my College experience of the last 2 years. There were about 3 people who were very standoffish and passive aggressive. Without being aware of what I was doing, I was chipping away at their steel walls, getting them to open up and share and express their inner selves to me. I can’t say that I have a technique, but all I do is hold space for them, and uplift their spirits. One person who was quite the challenge, opened up and blossomed into the person she was meant to be. For the sake of this story I will change her name to Raven.

From the moment Raven and I met, I felt instantly drawn to her. She seemed distant, cold, and extremely private about who she was. As usual fate intervened, and we were paired together for a group project. She was a little abrupt, arrogant, and stern. We both shared a Slavic ethnic background, so I suspected it had to do with the typical Slavic rough around the edges demeanour. But I was still drawn to her and didn’t buy into the image she was presenting. We both discovered that we shared a lot in common with one another, and I for the first time found myself opening up more about my background and interests, as when I did, her body language become less standoffish. I knew I was hitting on something. Since we had to spend a lot of time together working on class projects, I started casually asking more questions with regards to her interests and hobbies. She was able to open up a little, but it was like pulling teeth. I got the impression that she didn’t trust me……a first for me. Once Raven saw that I wasn’t hanging around with the other classmates, she started talking to me more. She obviously had little patience for the other students as did I, who were immature and clones of one another. She obviously valued individuality and non-conformism. Months went by and we started talking to each other more frequently, even by email, exchanging movies and books, and collaborating on more school assignments. By this point, I knew we were “friends.”

Raven was very different than the other students. She wore rock band t-shirts, Doc Marten combat books, and even came back to school one Monday morning with her hair shaved off. I appreciated her uniqueness and deviance and made that known to her. I could see that her rebellion against the normal social codes of society, was actually her seeking validation, and all Raven wanted was to be validated for who she was. She obviously was feeling uncomfortable in her own skin. Raven also started to compliment me on my individuality, the fact that I chose to ignore the “popular” people and had unique taste in fashion and popular culture. I could see that she was feeling more comfortable opening up. This is when I began asking more personal questions with regards to her family and past. She was very evasive and would give the impression that she didn’t want to discuss it. I knew I had found Raven’s weak spot. For the first time, this was when I began to open up more about my own family and past. Nothing too detailed, but enough that she was intrigued. When I did this, she also began opening up more. Raven admitted that she did not speak to her family, rented a room, and had virtually no friends. She had completely cut herself off from the world. I didn’t ask her any more questions about that and she did not seem willing enough to discuss it. One day we were both sitting in a study room at the library working on a project when out of the blue she mentioned the fact that she gets extremely annoyed when someone calls her a lady. She glared at me when she said that and I was a little taken aback. I would repeatedly refer to Raven as a lady in emails and I had no idea that offended her. I just said, “oh okay, I’ll make sure not to do that anymore.” This got me thinking that perhaps she was lesbian?

A few weeks later we were sitting in a study room in the library once again and we were discussing internship interviews that we both went on. She went on an interview to a highly prestigious company and said she felt extremely uncomfortable because there was a man there who was hitting on her. I said, “well it happens, and if you don’t feel comfortable you don’t have to go back.” She then said “well it’s very awkward for me, well it’s because as everyone can probably guess, I’m transgender.” Aha! To be honest, I wasn’t surprised, even though I wasn’t entirely sure that’s what it was. After almost 2 years, Raven let go of all the walls she built up around her. I just nodded and gave her my support. I said “that no matter what, everyone needs to be themselves, and we only have 1 life to live, so you might as well do it the right way.” She nodded too and became a different person. She also confessed this to me in the first room we ever had a conversation in. The first room where her steel walls protected her. We had come full circle. She was so much more relaxed and at peace. The next few weeks Raven opened up even more. Those mysterious doctor’s appointments she was constantly going to had to do with her trying to find a doctor who could help her transition. What was interesting was that she opened up to another friend of our’s whose friend was also transgender. She recommended a doctor and it was a success. The day Raven started talking openly about her struggle and her transitional process, and when she even asked me for my opinion on her new name, I knew that we would never see each other again. My last conversation with Raven had to do with her excitedly telling me that her hormone therapy would be starting later that month. The last words I said to her, were “congratulations, I am so happy for you, and you can always count on me being your personal cheerleader.” After that I never saw Raven again.

The February eclipses in 2017 rolled around and I realized I did not want to continue my college education. Once again it seemed external circumstances severed the friendship. I have often wondered if had the eclipses not come around, would I still be friends with Raven? Deep down, I know the answer. Raven was healed, she was finally validated. I don’t take responsibility for that, but I do feel I helped to facilitate her opening up. Simultaneously while she was opening up to me, I began opening up to her about hating College and my internship. She also felt the same way and was going to be pursuing more creative avenues. I encouraged her to do that, but I wasn’t encouraging myself. I guess having the courage to walk away from everything with only 2 months left, was when my walls came down too. Ironically it was the Tower card that I kept getting in my weekly tarot readings that gave me the push to do it.

Raven’s story is the most dramatic example in my life of my healer and healed friendship. I have had countless more, and know I will continue to as well. I don’t take pride in this unique role, I don’t take responsibility for helping to heal others. All I do is try to facilitate their growth and give their vulnerability a place to shine.

Healers are the ones who need to be healed themselves. And I know that there is a lot more healing to come.

New Venus Cycle Begins!

March 25, Venus enters a new 19 month cycle also known as the rebirth of Venus! 8 days after today, Venus will become visible in the sky as a morning star, which will mark new values, new ideas about relationships and new experiences with love and art during these next 19 months. This is about what YOU WANT as opposed to what others expect of you.

Many Astrologers have been discussing the Venus pentagram and or flower which is a complicated journey that Venus travels, marking important evolutionary events in a person’s life. What’s important to note is that this new cycle begins at 4 degrees Aries, so check to see where 4 degrees Aries falls in your chart as this area of your life will experience new beginnings during this 19 month cycle. Venus will be making her next point at 19 degrees of Capricorn on January 9, 2018, when she enters Scorpio, conjunct Pluto. Check to see where 19 degrees of Capricorn falls in your chart as well, because this area of your life will see a major transformation.

Audrey Hepburn and her film ‘Sabrina’ have been my muses during our Venus RX cycle, as she was born with Venus in Aries RX (like myself). The above gif marks the point in the film when Sabrina returns from her stint in Paris, as a sophisticated woman who knows what she wants. Venus’ transformation from an evening star to a morning star is asking us to ponder this question, “if we were given the opportunity to leave the world for a while and return as an upgraded version of ourselves, who would you be, and what would that look like?” Would you be a spiritual guru? An artist? A humanitarian? Rise like the star you are, and get ready for a new adventure!

Today is an excellent day to set some new intentions regarding Venusian things. Now that we are in the halfway point of our Venus Retrograde cycle, some things probably need to be reworked in your life when it comes to what’s important to you. Write a love letter to yourself, or to your ideal partner. Pay attention to what comes up for you during these next few days. Be creative, be bold, and start a new self-care practice if you can! Keep all of this in mind, when Venus conjuncts our New Moon in Aries coming up on March 27-28, which will ask us to try something new.

I’m wishing you all a beautiful heartful Venus cycle!

xo

My Venus Return

Since March 22 I have been experiencing my Venus Return, when Venus is exactly conjunct your natal Venus. The few days before and after this special event, you might experience more Venusian things in your life such as more romance, fun, luxury, creativity, and passion. You can also experience some of the more negative expressions of Venus too, such as jealousy, greed, gluttony, heated arguments etc. Pay close attention to how your days have been unfolding. This can give you a very clear idea of how Venusian things in your life will unfold over the next year. On March 22 I celebrated my 24th birthday which was a quiet day for me, a day that was very introspective and quiet. This can indicate a year that will involve more soul searching and self care. The days following have been very emotional, and I have also spent them watching Astrology webinars, one in particular about finding marriage in the horoscope using Jamini Astrology. I have had some spiritual/psychic readings that have foretold of an upcoming relationship for me this year. Interestingly enough, Lenormand and Tarot readings I have done for myself have also shared the same messages. If you can spend your Venus Return consciously by doing things you enjoy, and by setting some Venusian intentions, you can make the most of this epic event in your own life!

Full Moon in Cancer January 12, 2017: Shell Shocked

Moonbeams- taking action, getting things done

Welcome to our first lunation of 2017! The Moon will be in 22 degrees of Cancer which is the Master Builder number, signaling a major transformation that will create the foundation for this year.

There will be a grand cardinal cross happening at this time with Uranus in Aries, Jupiter in Libra, Pluto conjunct with the Sun. The whole year will be under the influence of this Cardinal energy, so it will be a year of getting things done and taking action. Cardinal signs will feel this the strongest, however, everyone will be transformed in some way.

The date of January 12, 2017 adds up the number 14 which is a karmic number. This number is about initiative, taking charge, and everlasting momentum. The transformation this moon brings will set the tone for the whole year, so just because something does not manifest in these next two weeks, does not mean there is not a lot of construction and deconstruction going on, although that is highly unlikely. The Moon will be in the sign of the crab, Cancer, so ultimately, this energy is about reconnecting us to ourselves, our internal oasis, and sense of comfort. It is ironic that this grand cardinal cross will be quite uncomfortable, because it is only when we are out of our comfort zones, when we are able to grow and find our way back “home.”  Many of us will have a major change of heart about something, and all of us will be enlightened.

If you have either you Sun, Moon, or AC in the Cardinal signs (Aries, Cancer, Libra, Capricorn) your personal lives, home, relationships, and careers will be illuminated. If you have your Sun, Moon, AC in the Fixed signs (Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Aquarius) then your opinions and perceptions will be illuminated. If you have either Sun, Moon, AC in Mutable signs (Virgo, Sagittarius, Pisces, Gemini) then issues of security and possessions will be illuminated. Please check to see where this Full Moon will be in your natal chart, because the house its transiting will bring a transformative energy to it. Saturn in Sagittarius will bring a stabilizing energy to this upheaval, so while it will be intense, rest assured that your life is being changed for the long-term.

This is a time of major emotional releasing. Uranus is rebelling, instigating a defiance within us, Jupiter in Libra is asking us to harmonize with our heart, the Sun and Pluto in conjunction is creating a major transformation within us. Like the crab who uses its shell as its home, defense, and identity marker, our own shells will be crashing and swaying with the waves of opposing energies during this lunation. The Moon is very comfortable in its own sign of Cancer, so take advantage of its nurturing qualities, and enjoy the ride. Be prepared to be shell-shocked!

New Moon in Capricorn: Ain’t No Mountain High Enough!

Date- December 29, 2016

Time-1:53am

Moonbeams- helplessness, confidence, dreams, perseverance

There is a heaviness associated with this New Moon. While we want to set our new year’s intentions, before we can, Mercury RX is forcing us to review these past 12 months before we plant the seeds. Saturn has been squaring Chiron which can make many of us feel depressed, low, and sad about our current situations. Feelings of inadequacy or helplessness can impede our progress. However, Moon sextile Mars is giving us a large hug, encouraging us to forge ahead, and to have the self confidence knowing that we can achieve our heart’s desires. Are you afraid of getting hurt? Are you afraid of failing? If so, take advantage of Saturn’s stable energies to refocus and get back on track. The Moon is also trining the Virgo North Node, suggesting that the devil is in the details. Only when you start weeding out those inhibiting feelings can you truly move ahead. A sextile to Neptune is helping to turn your dreams into reality, but not without work and commitment. Ultimately, this New Moon is about being grateful for where you are now, looking at your weakness objectively and as opportunities for growth. Uranus will be going direct exactly 3 hours after the New Moon squaring Pluto, signifying change and transformation. Have faith, and set your intentions with a plan on how you want to achieve them. Remember, the symbol for Capricorn is the mountain goat, so slowly but surely you will make your way up the mountain. Ain’t no mountain high enough!