Womb Awakening by Azra Bertrand & Seren Bertrand- REVIEW

An exploration of the divine feminine, an intricate look at the hidden feminine/womb symbology throughout cultures, times, and places, and the explanation of the womb as a spiritual gateway- this book was groundbreaking on a number of levels. As someone who has recently become very interested in the divine feminine, I have been on the hunt for a book like Womb Awakening for quite some time. This book will shock you, awaken you, and inspire you to open yourself up to feminine consciousness. Feminine consciousness is described in the book as a metaphor for cosmic creation. When we begin to honour the feminine and all that is encompasses such as mothering, nurturing, creativity, intimacy, and intuition, we can not only heal ourselves- but we have the opportunity to the heal humanity because the feminine boils down to LOVE. Since we all came from the Great Mother of the universe, we are all starseeds encoded with the feminine- we each have the power to create and to destroy.

The book went in a few different directions and proposed that the ills of the world can be attributed to the disconnection to the feminine- a soul loss. It’s not about being a woman or a man- feminine goes beyond that as we each have both within us. This book explores why there is a need to embrace the feminine cosmology again after thousands of years of patriarchy.

Rather than chapters, this book contains Spirals- which are sections of the book that explore the mysteries of the feminine deeper than what a chapter could. The spirals themselves will be explained later in the book as the original chakra system- a feminine spiral path that energy flows mirroring a cosmic portal. This supports one of the main tenets of womb consciousness which is that flow with life is the feminine mystery. There is a deep discussion of the Womb of God which explains womb consciousness. I would have preferred if that was at the beginning of the book prior to the long discussion of womb symbology. Throughout the book Womb Oracles were a creative way to eloquently express and digest the chapter it followed, and were channeled by the authors who journeyed deep into the feminine. This gave a great visual. A plethora of tips on how to connect to womb consciousness such as breathing techniques and posture poses were extremely helpful and reader friendly.

This book went places other books on the divine feminine did not. There were discussions on the cerebellum, the spiritual meanings of conception, gestation, and how the four elements are connected to birth, which was ingenious. The lunar consciousness discussion was unique, and I would have loved more information on that because there aren’t any books that have explored that from the angle of Womb Consciousness. The trickster archetype to explain the loss of the feminine was original along with the sacred feminine medicine wheel.

If I could sum up what Womb Consciousness is, this is what I would say:

-Womb is a place of sacred union- where we lose the “I’ and become one with source

-Womb as a stargate, a resevoir of cosmic knowledge

-Alchemical abilities of the womb- becoming a sacred form of chemistry

-Womb is an archive of trauma and deep emotions

I have never read a book that had so much passion and love poured into its pages. You can really tell the authors have been affected greatly by womb consciousness and have evolved and opened up to the feminine. This is an encyclopedic source while at the same time a love letter and sensory exploration of the feminine that is compelling and inspiring. Womb Awakening is and will be a sacred encyclopedia for generations to come! The book itself is a womb that the reader will journey into, and every page will become a source of light.

The Cairo Pulse by B. B. Kindred- REVIEW

This book was a metaphysical exploration of the collective consciousness, magnetism, memory recall, and the limits of the human experience. The main character Gabriel, an architect, begins to tap into the reservoir we call the collective consciousness due to an enigmatic character named Cairo. Think of it as a database where old memories, suppressed feelings and thoughts get archived. I couldn’t help but notice that the use of architecture throughout the story was reminiscent of a classical technique known as the Art of Memory. This technique required the individual to create a mental picture of a building with rooms. Usually this building was one which was familiar to the individual. Different objects would be envisioned in each room, leading the individual through the building of their mind. This technique was used ultimately for memory recall. I wonder if the author intentionally or unintentionally incorporated this technique into the story? Regardless, it serves as a genius metaphor for memory retrieval. The human mind is like a building with thousands of rooms that contain compartmentalized experiences. Deep spiritual practices such as meditation or for the purpose of this book- magnetic pulses, can assist with breaking into these rooms to collect what was believed to be lost. The story makes a point that it’s not simply about remembering what once was- rather it’s a full mind, body, soul experience that shatters the five senses into heightened awareness, and creates a spiritual awakening whereby one realizes that nothing is ever truly lost- but simply unconscious. If time is an illusion, than what once was, is what is now. Artificial memories become the norm such as memorizing useless information, and forgetting what happened merely minutes ago, while natural memories become stored into a hermetic reservoir. The human mind can be both logical and illogical at times, and The Cairo Pulse explores this idea- pushing the boundaries of what we believe to be the human potential.

The story is overly descriptive and wordy, but I appreciate this complexity as simplicity would have been a disservice to this mind boggling journey. The Cairo Pulse will challenge you to dig deep within yourself in order to align to your highest potential. If The Cairo Pulse is deemed a sci-fi novel, than I am very excited for this genre to explore the spirituality of science.

Why 2017 is 10 Universal Year and Not a 1 Universal Year

I don’t know about the rest of you, but 2017 has not been the most amazing year for me up to this point. At the end of the highly emotional universal 9 year of 2016, I was really looking forward to the blessings that the 1 universal year of 2017 was going to be bringing. The 1 in numerology is associated with new beginnings, self reliance, outward energy, and independence. Since January of this year, I have experienced all of these expressions, but they have been extremely uncomfortable and difficult. The shadow side of the 1 universal energy is self critical behaviour, lack of self trust, egotism, and self destruction. For me personally, I have been experiencing the shadow side of the 1 energy. I have been doing a lot of reflecting lately, and I have come to realize that perhaps we aren’t in a 1 universal year at all, but are in fact a 10 universal year. The 10 number is numerology is known as the number of fate. If we observe the number we can see that the one is standing right beside the zero. The zero in numerology is the source of all other numbers, it marks a major manifestation point. Its shadow side is nothingness, the void, where it’s uncomfortable for us to sit while the one is asking us to charge ahead with our plans. In the astrological communities, something known as the galactic centre has been the subject of a lot of discussions. The galactic centre is the black hole in our milky way galaxy approximately 27,000 light years away. Like other black holes, this is a gravitational centre, where it sucks in the surrounding energy of the galaxy. Saturn is currently sitting there at 27 degrees of Sagittarius. Saturn is the planet of effort, restrictions, commitment, and long term goals. Sagittarius is the sign of visions, higher learning, and philosophy. When we bring these two together it is obvious that our futures are being reshaped, our reality is being birthed into something new!

If we reduce 27 we get 9, so expect many endings regarding your perspectives.  If we apply this to numerology, we can view the zero as being the black hole sucking us into something new, hence the 1 root energy. We have the strong desire during a 1 universal year to experience something new, but in 10 universal year, fate collides with our own desires, creating those shadow 1 expressions. 2017 has been tough so far, it seems events that were destined to happen, happened quickly and without warning. We are all being sucked into the vortex of change and fate, stargating us to a new reality. So rather than viewing 2017 as a 1 universal year, let’s try viewing it as a 10 universal year, and then maybe we won’t be so resistant to changes happening beyond our control.

New Moon in Taurus April 26, 2017: Let Them Eat Cake!

Moonbeams- nurture yourself, presence, mindfulness

New Moons in Taurus are always about taking time for yourself to indulge, by practicing mindfulness through being present in each and every moment. Venus the ruler of Taurus will still be in its shadow phase during this time conjunct Chiron in Pisces a 29 degrees signifying the cusp of great change with regards to self worth before moving back into Aries. Seeing as there is strong Neptunian energy during this NM, there is a certain mystical threshold that is being crossed, synchronicity’s, dreams, divination, déjà vu will all be very heightened. Saturn still at the galactic centre is representing a major shift in the space time continuum where the future, present, and past are colliding, creating out of body experiences for us. We don’t have any control over this, but what we do have is the fixed earth energy of Taurus which is teaching us a major lesson of being present and rooted in our nature. Coming back into our bodies is in itself a spiritual practice because our 5 senses allow us to stay connected to our earthy sensuous being, creating a fertile ground for new roots to take hold. The polarity of Taurus is Scorpio which is forcing us to let go of co-dependency- depending on spirit to bring us the answers we need. Everything we need to know is within ourselves. Self reliance is Taurean energy in its rawest form. If we are not grounded, it doesn’t matter how much information is being downloaded. We have a choice during this New Moon of whether we are going to embrace the lessons of Taurus’ ruler Venus from its retrograde cycle of loving ourselves by honouring our needs by listening to our inner voice (Taurus-throat), or are we going to get lost in the Piscean current? As Marie Antoinette (archetype of self indulgence)- who had her Venus in Scorpio said- “let them eat cake”, a.k.a, let us get real with ourselves by understanding that we have all the information we need going forward, so let’s make the most of it!

Tips

Set intentions around trusting your voice

A Poem for Eostre

Eostre, a time to worship the sun, when ascension has begun. It is a time of fertility, but like egg shells, a time of fragility. We pray for a fruitful year, and honour Isis, the seer, to rid us of the crisis we call crucifixion. When we self sacrifice, it is not an honourable act, but shows a pact, we made with our soul, denying it something we worship today called Sol.

Image by Charlotte Self

Full Moon in Libra April 11, 2017: The Pink Moon

“After all these years, I am still involved in the process of self-discovery. It’s better to explore life and make mistakes than to play it safe. Mistakes are part of the dues one pays for a full life.”- Sophia Loren

Time:

7:08am UT

2:08Am ET

11:08PM PDT April 10

Moonbeams: Sudden realization, finding solutions, big choice to make

To keep this short and sweet, our full moon in Libra is about understanding how the choices we have been making up to this point have been hindering our progress. Everyone will experience some sort of an A-Ha moment that will illuminate the blockages and self sabotage that have been going on for a while now. This is an auspicious lunation for awakening. Happening on April 11, 11 is known as the gateway number, the stargate number, the number of light. We will have an opportunity to step into a new version of ourselves, bridging the gap between the higher realm and our reality. The T-Square will be activated with Jupiter, Uranus, Pluto. The Moon will be conjunct Jupiter opposite Uranus. Have we been too self sacrificing? Have we been betraying ourselves? Co-dependency might be highlighted with the theme of re-analyzing our values. This lunation is about integrity. What am I willing to change about myself in order to experience happiness and harmony?

It’s quite fitting this is known as a Pink Moon, because self love will propel us forward for the rest of the year. The secret is to send love to those parts of your life that have been experiencing harsh criticism and neglect, which is the house that the moon is transiting, at this time. This is a time of energetic diplomacy between your heart and mind. Don’t overthink anything, let your intuition (Jupiter) guide you to the answers you need (Libra).

Check to see where the moon will be transiting in your chart, the house it is in will show you where you will have an unexpected realization, its opposite house will show you where you have been blocking your self from experiencing joy and evolution.

The above quote from Sophia Loren who has her natal Jupiter in Libra and is the muse of this full moon, perfectly captures its essence. Libra at its core is all about self-discovery. Those parts of our lives that we have been suppressing or abusing are coming out to play. When we understand where we have been cheating ourselves, this is the code for living a full life. Life is all about learning, and when we continue learning about ourselves, we live our purpose. Life is all about striking that balance between teaching and learning, and it is those greatest lessons that will teach us the most.

My Story of Being an Accidental “Healer.”

She left as fast as she entered my life. It was as though the wind carried her in from some barren landscape, where all she had were the oppressing elements and her own inner demons to keep her company. She found me like a camel finds water in the desert. Little did I know, that somehow, I was looking for her too, that I was brought to her from my own paradise, that was lush with medicinal plants, and sunshine. This was my typical encounter of the healer and the healed.

If I look back over my relatively short life, I can see that it is filled with short term “friendships.” My friendships typically last 2 years, and not a second more than that. As someone who doesn’t necessarily crave friendships, this is an alright arrangement, but after a while, it does get lonely and predictable.

In school, which is where all of the friendships occurred, it was always the person who had a lot of emotional baggage, personal drama, broken home and or family, or crippling low self esteem who seemed to find their way to me. I suppose inadvertently I was also drawn to them, as they typically had no friends, were bullied, and were genuinely nice people. On the surface we shared absolutely nothing in common and were the polar opposites to each other. Other people would even question why we were friends, or would just scratch their heads as to why we even talked? I didn’t pay much attention to it, even though I was aware of their perceptions, and found that my “friends’ were oblivious to those feelings and remarks.

My “friends” would spend great deals of time unloading all of their baggage onto me and would confide in me personal struggles they were having that no one else knew about. As a child, I didn’t consciously know that this is what they were doing, but as the agreeable person I am by nature, I listened, offered my advice and insight, but spent most of the time uplifting their spirits and letting them know that they were perfect just the way they were. Conversations never occurred around me or my life, and considering the amount of private information that was confided in me, no one knew anything about me, or my own inner struggles and emotions. Everyday at school felt like a therapy session and when I wasn’t at school, I was at home spending time by myself, absorbed in my books and movies and in my endless imagination. I can see now, that I was retreating, needing to get away from the emotional vampires, hence why I was and still am a loner.

When my “friends” self esteem improved or when the pieces of their lives were put back together, suddenly, the friendship would end, as if someone from above cut the cords that were binding us together. As a child this would usually involve either not keeping in touch with them over the summer holidays, one of us moving away or going to a different school, or finding a different crowd to hang out with. I must say, that I was almost always the person who would cut these cords. I never stayed in touch with my “friends” over the holidays or when we changed schools. Everytime I would go to a new place I would literally start from scratch and not want to keep in touch with anyone from my past. I’ve burned a lot of bridges as a result, but the bridges were only made of paper, and not brick or steel.

One summer afternoon last year, while wearing a piece of Sodalite, it dawned on me, that my friendships suddenly ended, because the person needing to be healed, was healed. Think about it, why hang around the hospital if you’ve recovered from your surgery? There’s no reason for you to be there.

What also dawned on me, was that while I was the one helping the healed, I was also helping myself. My friends were never shy or embarrassed to be vulnerable, they never felt ashamed or uncomfortable sharing intimate details of their battles and inner demons. What’s ironic, is that while I was there to comfort my friends, the one needing comforting was actually me. I have always been hypersensitive and suppressed a lot of my feelings as a child unknowingly. I never had someone to confide in like my friends did. Sure, I had my Mom who is very psychically connected to me, and pretty much knows what I’m feeling and thinking without having to say anything, but she still does not know everything, and I think I’m not alone in saying that I think most of us wish we could have that super close friend who we could turn to in times of need, that person who could offer their unconditional support and love, no judgement or critique. What I’ve come to appreciate about my friends, is their raw vulnerability, something I have always been afraid of.

There’s also a flip side to this dynamic. Recently, in the last couple of years or so, I have also noticed that I am energetically seeking out those who have built walls around themselves, those who have something to hide. I can see this in my College experience of the last 2 years. There were about 3 people who were very standoffish and passive aggressive. Without being aware of what I was doing, I was chipping away at their steel walls, getting them to open up and share and express their inner selves to me. I can’t say that I have a technique, but all I do is hold space for them, and uplift their spirits. One person who was quite the challenge, opened up and blossomed into the person she was meant to be. For the sake of this story I will change her name to Raven.

From the moment Raven and I met, I felt instantly drawn to her. She seemed distant, cold, and extremely private about who she was. As usual fate intervened, and we were paired together for a group project. She was a little abrupt, arrogant, and stern. We both shared a Slavic ethnic background, so I suspected it had to do with the typical Slavic rough around the edges demeanour. But I was still drawn to her and didn’t buy into the image she was presenting. We both discovered that we shared a lot in common with one another, and I for the first time found myself opening up more about my background and interests, as when I did, her body language become less standoffish. I knew I was hitting on something. Since we had to spend a lot of time together working on class projects, I started casually asking more questions with regards to her interests and hobbies. She was able to open up a little, but it was like pulling teeth. I got the impression that she didn’t trust me……a first for me. Once Raven saw that I wasn’t hanging around with the other classmates, she started talking to me more. She obviously had little patience for the other students as did I, who were immature and clones of one another. She obviously valued individuality and non-conformism. Months went by and we started talking to each other more frequently, even by email, exchanging movies and books, and collaborating on more school assignments. By this point, I knew we were “friends.”

Raven was very different than the other students. She wore rock band t-shirts, Doc Marten combat books, and even came back to school one Monday morning with her hair shaved off. I appreciated her uniqueness and deviance and made that known to her. I could see that her rebellion against the normal social codes of society, was actually her seeking validation, and all Raven wanted was to be validated for who she was. She obviously was feeling uncomfortable in her own skin. Raven also started to compliment me on my individuality, the fact that I chose to ignore the “popular” people and had unique taste in fashion and popular culture. I could see that she was feeling more comfortable opening up. This is when I began asking more personal questions with regards to her family and past. She was very evasive and would give the impression that she didn’t want to discuss it. I knew I had found Raven’s weak spot. For the first time, this was when I began to open up more about my own family and past. Nothing too detailed, but enough that she was intrigued. When I did this, she also began opening up more. Raven admitted that she did not speak to her family, rented a room, and had virtually no friends. She had completely cut herself off from the world. I didn’t ask her any more questions about that and she did not seem willing enough to discuss it. One day we were both sitting in a study room at the library working on a project when out of the blue she mentioned the fact that she gets extremely annoyed when someone calls her a lady. She glared at me when she said that and I was a little taken aback. I would repeatedly refer to Raven as a lady in emails and I had no idea that offended her. I just said, “oh okay, I’ll make sure not to do that anymore.” This got me thinking that perhaps she was lesbian?

A few weeks later we were sitting in a study room in the library once again and we were discussing internship interviews that we both went on. She went on an interview to a highly prestigious company and said she felt extremely uncomfortable because there was a man there who was hitting on her. I said, “well it happens, and if you don’t feel comfortable you don’t have to go back.” She then said “well it’s very awkward for me, well it’s because as everyone can probably guess, I’m transgender.” Aha! To be honest, I wasn’t surprised, even though I wasn’t entirely sure that’s what it was. After almost 2 years, Raven let go of all the walls she built up around her. I just nodded and gave her my support. I said “that no matter what, everyone needs to be themselves, and we only have 1 life to live, so you might as well do it the right way.” She nodded too and became a different person. She also confessed this to me in the first room we ever had a conversation in. The first room where her steel walls protected her. We had come full circle. She was so much more relaxed and at peace. The next few weeks Raven opened up even more. Those mysterious doctor’s appointments she was constantly going to had to do with her trying to find a doctor who could help her transition. What was interesting was that she opened up to another friend of our’s whose friend was also transgender. She recommended a doctor and it was a success. The day Raven started talking openly about her struggle and her transitional process, and when she even asked me for my opinion on her new name, I knew that we would never see each other again. My last conversation with Raven had to do with her excitedly telling me that her hormone therapy would be starting later that month. The last words I said to her, were “congratulations, I am so happy for you, and you can always count on me being your personal cheerleader.” After that I never saw Raven again.

The February eclipses in 2017 rolled around and I realized I did not want to continue my college education. Once again it seemed external circumstances severed the friendship. I have often wondered if had the eclipses not come around, would I still be friends with Raven? Deep down, I know the answer. Raven was healed, she was finally validated. I don’t take responsibility for that, but I do feel I helped to facilitate her opening up. Simultaneously while she was opening up to me, I began opening up to her about hating College and my internship. She also felt the same way and was going to be pursuing more creative avenues. I encouraged her to do that, but I wasn’t encouraging myself. I guess having the courage to walk away from everything with only 2 months left, was when my walls came down too. Ironically it was the Tower card that I kept getting in my weekly tarot readings that gave me the push to do it.

Raven’s story is the most dramatic example in my life of my healer and healed friendship. I have had countless more, and know I will continue to as well. I don’t take pride in this unique role, I don’t take responsibility for helping to heal others. All I do is try to facilitate their growth and give their vulnerability a place to shine.

Healers are the ones who need to be healed themselves. And I know that there is a lot more healing to come.